an emotional goodbye..
i remember it as if it were only last year. it was 2004. i was a senior in college. my high school best friend ian and i were talking on the phone (landline, mind you) and he mentioned he was selling his civic.
me: "really? can i buy it?"
ian: "but you don't even know how to drive."
me: "then i'll learn how to drive."
a week later, the car was turned over to me, and my brother took me out to alabang zapote road, slex, and jp rizal to teach me how to drive the manila way.
fast forward to may 2010.
"wje", as he is fondly called by me, my family, and closest friends, had to say goodbye. it was painful to see this decade old car go in and out of honda again and again for different repairs. you must know this about wje:
..wje is my first ever purchase with anything i've ever saved up from modeling while i was in college.
..he was my first major investment with my hard earned money.
..he was the first thing i owned that had my name on paper saying i owned it.
..he has been with me through my absolute best and happiest times, and he has been with me through all those devastatingly low times driving home alone crying.
..he was with me when i graduated college, when i went to every vtr or audition, when i got my first job in tv production, and when i got the opportunity of the job i have today.
he was high and mighty and amazing in my eyes.. and to see him getting "sickly" through time was just painful. after some radiator problems mid-may, i knew it was time. in my heart, it was time to say goodbye.
i know wje may be "just a car", and at the end of the day, he is just a material thing in this world. but its the memories that me, my family, my friends, my loved ones, or even total strangers have with wje that makes him so important in my life.
as i sat there in the honda showroom waiting for papers to be fixed to trade him in, tears swelled up in my eyes. it was a goodbye i didn't think would hit me as much as it did. i asked to see him one last time, "i just have to take one last picture," i told the honda staff.
you will be missed wje! thank you so, so much for the memories. you will always be my first.